My Blog is Taking a Change

So I graduated from college in December (2014) and I've been struggling with the burning question of: "Now what?"

What do I want to do to start off my career?
Do I even want a career?
Where do I want to apply?
What is my biggest passion?
When did I lose sight of my dreams?

... And the ultimate question: What is going to make me the happiest?

All through college I had a burning desire for reporting and a passion for writing. I had not always been the best student, but by the time I became a senior, I had mastered the skill of being the ideal "college student." I thoroughly enjoyed going to class and completing assignments. Time seemed to fly by and before I knew it, I was graduating.

Looking back, I'm not quite sure when I lost my passion. 

Did I lose my dreams of starting a successful career when I lost my very best friend due to drug overdose?
Did I lose sight of my ideal outcome when I got so distracted by my busy life of working 3 jobs along with too many hours in school?
Did I lose myself when I poured all my energy into my complicated, serious relationship that always seemed to keep failing anyways?

Where did the passion go?

Don't get me wrong, I am still going to get a "real job." Because that's the only choice I have, right? It's a constant struggle of what I WANT to do and what I SHOULD do.

Today, as I sat at the tanning salon that I absolutely love working at, I decided I needed to start writing again. For too long have I sat silent. This is why I am changing the entire aspect of this blog. I started this blog for one of the classes I took in college, but I've always felt the name of the blog as fitting. It started as a fashion blog, but today I am turning it into more of a reflection blog.

Writing is my passion and I plan on getting my motivation back. My life is going through some interesting changes right now. For better or for worse? I guess we'll have to wait and see.